New blog explained...

So I have decided to start a new blog. This is mostly because I have way too many thoughts on God, music and general life activities to fit into my brain. I am trying to live intentionally about everything. Nothing is meaningless. My mind subjects all activity to its critical eye and sometimes it feels like I'm going crazy. My other blog is somewhat limited in its scope so I thought maybe starting this would help.

A note on the title of my blog:
The title for my blog comes from a Death Cab for Cutie song with the same name. There are several reasons why I chose this.

1. This is quite possibly my favorite song ever (one that also comes close is Jeff Buckley's Lover, you should have come over) It is my idea of what good song writing should be; therefore, it says a lot about me.

2. The title is suggestive of my name...Gray.

3. The title is suggestive of my mood. It resonates with my struggle with indifference and a search for a unique and colorful identity. And yet, there is hope. The song suggests that color is really "bursting at the seams from absorbing everything."

4. The song conveys reality about life. Life is concrete. There is "fact not fiction" in the world and even though it is hard sometimes (the song is about a break-up and is very sad), it is reality and we have to face it and talk about it.

Here are the lyrics:

"A Lack Of Color"

And when i see you
I really see you upside down
But my brain knows better
It picks you up and turns you around
Turns you around, turns you around

If you feel discouraged
That there's a lack of color here
Please don't worry lover
It's really bursting at the seams
Absorbing everything
The spectrum's a to z

This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years
And all the girls in every girlie magazine
Can't make me feel any less alone
I'm reaching for the phone

To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home
But i know it's too late
I should have given you a reason to stay
Given you a reason to stay [x3]

This is fact not fiction
For the first time in years